"On this day, God wants you to know...
... that you can be an echo of your past, or the glory of your future. Past is connected to future through the present. At this very moment, at every moment, you are choosing to carry on the past with all its troubles on your shoulders, OR to let it go and see bright future pull your forward. Choose wisely."
This was what I've got yesterday, when I logged into FB to check out the daily message that God had for me. Very true and right smack deep into what's always in me. Yes true, if you might ask / know or anything, I'm also, or rather most of the time looking back at what had happened and etc. At times, certain things - regret, some - revengful, some - happy, whereas most of the time I've just not much feelings towards it, as like they say, time heals all wounds (well most of it, I find).
2009 had indeed been a much "eventful" year for me. So much more than I can handle actually. But when you're a child of the most loving Father ever, what's there to fear ? NOTHING!! For the writer for the book of truth, Bible, God, said “If God IS for us, who can be against us?” (Romans 8:31). AMEN!!
But than come to speak of it, looking back at it now, it had been quite tiring to a certain extend.
The (major "eventful") stuffs that had happened:
- Work Wise (old new contracts)
After working with CBO for about 2years plus, my old contract wtih CBO ended in Jan. However about 1 month plus later, under another new contract, started a new job at the same company. But this time, it's under a different organization.
Starting out at a new team / organization sure wasn't as easy as I thought it will be. I mean look, how difficult can it be when you're back at the good'o place ? But of course I was quite, if not very wrong.
I've to not only adjusted to my new team mates, as it's a totally new team, new organization but I've too, adjusted to my new seating environment.
- Friendship
Learnt something about this word once again. And of course friends or "friends" you'll know it in time to come. And of course I've been through this thingy with certain types of "friends". However this time round, it sure open up my eyes and allow me to see "new" stuffs once again. Oh well, whatever.
- Mommy moved out
Due to family problem, and it gotta so bad that Mommy moved out mid of this year. Sigh.... it's bad. It totally drained the everyone, mainly brother and I (or rather more of me). For me is the case of both physically and mentally. Horrible. Yuck! >P
- Chubby went home to be with the Lord
Exactly 3 months after Mommy moved out, Chubby went home to be with the Lord. It was one of the most horrible period of my life (as far as I can remember), for nothing beats worse than this. For this, I will blog in another entry, just for Chubby Boy, my little darling. :)
- BKK trip
Frankly speaking, it was just so-so for both of us, Prince and I. Ok for this too, I'll blog in another entry. :)
- Whole of December
So far, in all my years of living, this had been in fact one of my most busy month, for both work and personal wise! But who's complaining? NOT me for sure! :) Work wise, it's been really busy. Lots of wedding bells in the air for personal side, union for Sherlyn & Zeki; Weimin & Danica; Michelle and her husband (Ben) and of course not forgetting my Auntie's 20th wedding anniversary! :) Congrates to all! And also on top of all, it's the Lord, Jesus's Birthday!! :) I love Christmas to MAX!! :)
That's all for my whole of 2009 all the marjor "eventful" stuffs that had happened to me. Throughout this year, though it drained me out for some "events" but however it did me good to a certain extend. No matter what it brought me up stronger than before. It allows me to see things in another manner and of course not forgetting to appericiate things more (of course to a certain extend) of life and people of course.
For year 2009, the things going through and had happened, I'll like to take this time to thank 2 very important people in my life.
1st) God - for being the very loving, gracious and faithful Father of all, He, not only didn't leave me, but stood by me, holding my hands and never letting me go. Changing everything to His plans for me, making me stronger than before.
2nd) Prince - for always being by my side, and not only that supporting me faithfully and never giving up on me. Especially during the time where Mommy moved out and when Chubby left us.
I know he's equally as tired as I am (physically wise mainly) when things happened at home. And especially when Chubby left us. Can you imagine how it was like, when the long awaited trip finally arrive for the year, and your love one sorta spoiled it for you? Ok I didn't really spoiled it I hope / guess, but I was tearing / crying (if not worse) non-stop, especially every now and than. And not only did he not throw me one side, feel embarrassed when I suddenly teared in the middle of town / crowd / dining (I hope) BUT he cheered me up more than ever and trying to distract me every now and than.
This support is where he have given me, is one which I've NEVER ever in my life ever experienced before.
I just want to tell Prince that "Thanks for everything, the support for pulling me through. I know it wasn't easy, in fact quite tough, but I really thank the Lord, from the bottom of my heart for you. No words can describle how I feel and how thankful I am. Everything as per above incidents to others, might seem so simple, but you know how everything is like, and I thank you once again for everything. My Prince，谢谢你。这些日子真的真的辛苦你了。"
How was your year 2009 ? I hope that everyone enjoyed it. :)
Year 2010 is just round the coner, in fact just a couple of more hours to go.
For this coming New Year 2010, may the Lord blessed everyone with tons and tons of over flowing blessings! Amen!
Happy New Year darlings! :)
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Looking back at year 2009
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Christmas Shopping Day - 30-Nov-2009
And so, started last year, Prince and I had decided to set aside one just for Christmas Shoppings! And solely just for that. Turned out quite well last year. And this year ? Well let us take a look. ;)
Aim: Met up real early for breakfast in TOWN!! And what's best, on a Monday Morning!! Where the rest of the world is getting to work totally having Monday Blues about it. ;) And than Christmas Shoppings after that. :)
Purpose: To spike the working crowd and to look at them rushing to work. ;)
Result: Achieved!! somewhat....
Last year, we didn't get to see the crowd as it was raining. This year we missed the crowd, but no worries on it. Totally fine cause we're not working on a Monday Morning!! Hahahaha~~~~
Have you ever seen roads that's soooooo empty, or rather no cars in town ?? ;)
During breakfast, we noticed that the ones who're having breakie with us are all the angmos tourists. Haha. It just feels soooo good!! :D
After the yummy and hearty breakfast, it's off to start our official annual Christmas Shoppings! :)
And ok to cut the story real short, we have got ourselves with tons and tons of coffee / tea breaks in between to R&R at the different cafes along town, and Prince got himself jeans, and I think I got myself, or rather we both got ourselves some story books (but I can't really remember though). And yup! :)
In short, nope, this year was very different from last, we didn't get any Christmas shopping done at all!! :(
Oh wait, I remembered I DID!! I got Honey Wine for his Parents!!
And I totally LOVE the packaging!!!! (Yes I know, and those who know me should know too, that I'm indeed a very package person)
So ya, that's the only present which we're gotten that day. Ok, we'll try again next year. ;) Haha~~
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
a homely weekend - 31-Oct - 01-Nov-2009
And so it's the Halloween weekend. Bet most, if not everyone, most properly will be out partying away, or attending Halloween parties, will all customes, masks, drinks and music.
However, as we've sorta "celebrated" our halloween about 2 weeks ago, therefore, this weekend, we decided to be good and stay at home.
And of course, staying home once again, meant that the Princess get to have a good homely meal! :)
Prince (unconvinced look): Can you manage ?
Me: Yes, I took home econs before. I’ve got A1 too!
Prince: Do you want to go watch the TV first ? Leave it to me.
Me (grunting): I can. I want to help!
Prince: Want to go watch TV first ?
Me: I can!!!! I can!!!!
Prince: Watch TV first ?
*CHOP* and the knife got stuck in between the carrot. And a few more hits of the carrot against the chopping board with the knife still totally refusing to budge or anything, and one last big strong hit and *BAM!*
And the carrot fell straight into the dustbin which was placed at the bottom next to the sink.
Me: Opps
Prince: Ok, I rest my case. Haiz….
Me: It’s not me! It’s the knife that’s not sharp!
And after dinner, it's setting up of the Christmas tree!! As this is my VERY first time stting up a Christmas tree, I was sooooo super EXCITED!! :D
You know, I took this photo for a momento as, you know I've always seen and experienced a very loving siblings brother and sister love for each other, whenever I look / saw the both of them together. :)
And as it was halloween night, they showed a few hours of Simspons on cable! And we watched all the way till about 1am or so before hitting the hay.
And woke up
And of course I helped to wash the dishes. :) (What's new anyway. >p)
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
houses
And so, Rev and I were having one of our daily work-day-afternoon tea break, and we were chatting and calculating about the costs of houses.
And guess what? Both of us nearly Flipped! After we calculated the savings which one pax had to save per month. (Ok look, we’re not getting a house together. We’re just calculating for each other. Hello, don’t think I do not know what you guys are thinking. Tsk Tsk, what’s on your mind!)
And so anyway, it’s sure is a huge sum of saving which we had to save per month, as both parties are looking at about 2 year time frame (2 year for her, while about 1.5year left for me). And guess what, none of us had done any savings yet! Yup you got it. Totally ZERO! Argh!
And so, we were talking about our parents houses and how much the reselling price will be and etc. And we even calculated the different type of houses. From 2nd resale of HDB (mansion-net – is this how you spelled it?), to condo and also the different locations for it.
We each have our own tricky situations. Hers will be more on the pricing wise (as in is it worth it), whereas mine is cause we have a targeted area which we want / have in mind. Sigh. Though it sound simply nice and fun while planning on your own houses. But when it comes to actual calculating the costs of the house alone, and with such a tight time frame, its just…. Sniff…. Let’s just say that we might be eating on bread and water if we’re lucky.
But then we’ll be keeping each other update on the research which we had done, as it turned out that we’re both keeping a lookout. Such a lovely surprise isn’t it.
Oh yes, and did I tell you that we have yet to calculated the renovations costs yet! ARGH! Let’s just pray for us ok?
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Difficulty in breathing
Sometimes it’s just so simply difficult to breathe.
Sometimes you’ve no idea how to handle it.
But you have to constantly remind yourself of all the good and positive things that are going round around you and you have to keep looking at the bright side.
As simple as not to let the others know about it and especially your loved ones worried about you.
You don’t want others to see the weak side of you and also not to let yourself be weaken.
However there are times where it’ll reach a point that / when one can’t breathe.
Totally airless.
With everything came down and back all at once, the past and present and some of the future.
The past is haunting, the present I’m struggling and the future is getting so vague.
I’ve no idea how to go about it and what to do with all of it.
With all things coming all at the same time, I’m totally having mixed feelings of all different feelings all at once.
The room is indeed beginning to spin, and there just doesn’t seems to be any oxygen around me anymore.
I hate to say this, but I’m really beginning to have a feeling of it. A feeling of not able to breathe anymore, total tightness in my chest. And it’s just so horrible!
As a child of the Lord, I can say that I’m in good hands of the Heavenly Father, who never let go of me, always holding me tightly in His arms, supporting me and totally allowing me to lean back on Him. He’s one great Father.
As simple as to say:
I’m just simply blindly following God. But blindly following Him, can only go right and NEVER go wrong.
Amen!
2 simple msn extracts with Prince
Prince just IM me earlier, as we're both still in office:
Prince: Hey Babe, if you're tired go back first ok? Don't wait for me
Me: It's ok, I'm fine.. I think I'll grab a beer shortly :)
Prince: Wait for me!
See the difference!? The beer got a much more better place in his heart than me!! Haha.. But that's what make my Prince him. That's the reason he's my prince. :)
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And we continue and here's another extract of our conversation further on:
Me: Your gf is such a smart girl
Me: 你捡到宝了.know how to read it ?
Prince: I think so. Something about eat full or not ?
(Yes I can see all of your expressions are the same as mine.)
Me: wah lao.. that's different chinese character!
Me: it read "Ni Jian Dao Bao (treasure) le"
Prince: huh??
Prince: orh....
Prince: now I got it
Me: ....
Prince: heeheehee
Yes if you think (those chinese super powerful darlings, you all know who you are) that my chinese is horrible, you can't blame me. I've a reason, it's cause of the Prince thus my chinese too had become 有限公司！ Hahahaha.... :)
Monday, October 26, 2009
KC's Birthday - 23-Oct-2009
It was KC's, my favourite 大哥's birthday, last Friday.
We sorta held a meeting the day before to decide how we're going to celebrate it for him.
Rita suggested to sabotage him. And after a short discussion, we decided to get one big bouqet of flowers for him. Sam Koh, than suggested to get him red roses which will sure do the trick!
It sure wasn't easy when you have one group of people deciding to get the type of flowers.
We went through websites after sites, from Xpressflowers, to 24hour florists and etc. Flowers after flowers, type of bouquets and what to go with the bouquet to trying to shield from others from what we were actually doing. (Cause you see, we were in a meeting room, and were looking through all these in a projector. We're really professional mind you. ;) )
And so after all the different phone calls out to the different stores and budgeting, finally we managed to agree on the "Prefect Present". A big bunch of balloons with 1 big bouquet of red roses with white fluffy ruffles around it!!
Next, was how are we going to present it to the birthday boy. Once again, the cheeky Rita suggested to have him parade the whole office, or rather at least from the recept area to his desk, which means will have to walk through my side. ;)
And than come the actual day~~~~
To make it more believable, therefore we have Gladys (who's our very good and if-you-mess-with-her-may-God-Bless-you caring for our front desk area and office facilities dept) to be in cahoots with us about the gifts.
And off we went into hiding into 2 of the few meeting rooms, around the front desk area, which were in a very good position of taking KC's reaction. ;)
And guess what, it was so long, that we all got tired and Rita made a comment which we couldn't agree more to it.
"Now I know how the paparazzi must have felt while waiting for the celebrities to be out, in order to take a feel shots of photos."
PS: Jo's his wife
And there he was left alone, in a daze, with the flowers, balloons and card.... ;)
And with that it's time that we revealed ourselves.
PS: On our way out, we noticed Sharon was in the other meeting room, which was directly behind the front desk, taking pictures. Haha.... we have you all cornered up KC! :)
Daph, Uma, Sam, Kevin, Henrick, are away from their seats (at meeting I think, can't remember)
There, of course you have to our dearest KC, you can't just deprive others from seeing you receiving such a nice surprise from your loviest sweetest pies don't you ?
The Parade ~~
(This is just so paparazzi)
And now here comes the Birthday Boy, showing off his presents to everyone, especially to each meeting rooms at their area.. 1st stop, the managers meeting~~
Presentation: "Erm yes, as you can see, this flowers and balloons are real nice.. good buy if you must have, and of course this only comes if you're as charming as me, that's where you'll have a group of fan club behind you"
Yup this IS the effect / result that we want to see. ;)
This is just our way of showing KC that we love him~~ AWWWW~~~~ *Shy*
Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KC!! MUACKZ!!
Saturday, October 24, 2009
cookout lunch day - 19-Oct-2009
18-Oct-2009 (Sunday)
And so, meet up with Keyan, for dinner and chilling section. Was indeed a good catch up. Shared with her the things which had happened recently, and she made a statement which totally touches my heart to the max "Eh, Please do not tell others that I'm a friend of yours. So many bad things have had happened to you and I do not know a single thing! What kind of friend am I !?"
Sweet isn't it ? Totally touches my heart to the max. 18years of friendship and still counting. :)
Prince went for Mr. Big concert with Gavin, and just shortly after he left me with Yan (actually just within mintues), guess what happen ? ;)
TAAAA-DAAAA~~~~
What's new when both Yan and I are together ? ;) Haha....
Well actually the books and the jigsaw I got it when Price was still with me. It's the rest, the DVD, lunch box and crackers which I bought it after I'm left alone with Keyan.
PS: Actually Prince didn't know of the DVD way after the actual day. I only told him in mid-Dec 2009. Opps. And he was like:
Prince: "HUH!? When on earth you bought it ? You didn't mention it to me about it!"
Me: But it's cheap! It was on sale, only SGD$10!
Prince: (-.-") Sales ah.....
PPS: (this post is actually done up in Dec-2009 but thanks to blogger new Post Options, where you can get to set the setting of the Post Date which you want it to be. ;) Haha. Which is totally COOL for me, as I've a tendencies of back-tracking my posts.).
So anyway, it was indeed a good catch up for both of us. A lovely evening to wrap up our day. :)
19-Oct-2009 (Monday)
As Saturday (17-Oct-2009) was Deepavali, therefore today, was a Holiday-Off-In-Lieu for us from company.
And guess what ? We decided to............................................................................................to be a couch potato for the whole of today!! :D
After much nagging, whining and
Therefore, we went over to NTUC in the morning for groceries, and off we're ready to cook back home.
And the flavourings (or whatever you call it):
And of course, not forgetting one of our favourite chilli. :) *Slurps*
So let us tuck in~~
Result:
And of course, all are cooked by yours truly's...................... Prince....................
Haha.. gotach.... cause the being one of the 21st Century new modern ladies, the Princess can’t cook for nuts of course. But hey, I can and will of course do the washing up very nicely and very good in fact and fast of course! *Proud* :)
Besides, as the ones cooking won’t like to wash up, (which is the truth, go check with your mommies / grandmas and whoever cooks) therefore, being the very sweet and understanding once again 21st century modern lady *clear throat* therefore I OFFER(ed) to do up ALL the washing for ‘em. :) And in this case too.
Till than~~~~ The Prince will cook (which he totally enjoy and heart) and I’ll do the washing (which frankly speaking, I totally detest doing, but not that I’m given the choice).
Till than once again, unless I can find some excuses of getting of the washings, I’ll be doing the washing. >p!